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Dear God, I cannot thank you enough for giving me the opportunity to be able to work in LA. As much as I don't know what's going to happen in a month, God... I pray that you will let everything go well. The entertainment industry is something I was really interested in although I didn't see myself being in it, but God, I know it was all your work done. Thank you God. I know that You will take care of me no matter what happens. Thank you once again. Thank you. In Your name. Amen.

I'm back here because I needed to keep my personal journals... no big deal.... I don't think you'll be able to read any of my journals here at all.

Xanga's cool =)

I like it when most of my stuff can be labeled as private, and I LOVE IT!

Privacy

It's just what when you really want to write your heart out, you just know that your blog is going to be public. I do wonder how long this will stay private. I really don't mind people reading, but it's just that I think it's too personal for people to read sometimes. Things like what I feel and where exactly I stand in Christ... Sometimes I just want somewhere to pour it out, but I don't know where. Blogspot is not a place for me to pour everything anymore. It became too public that whenever I write something sad, people will start messaging me if I am alright. I know it's nice to know that they are all concern, but nah... to let the world know that I am suffering?? Not me.

I'm such a complainer

This would be a very selfish entry, but hey, since when am I not selfish?? I'm always writing about myself... Do I even think for other people?? I do envy people who thinks not of themselves, people who knows what to put first in life and what not to do in life. What am I doing with my own life?? Nothing!! and I'm here sitting and complaining that I'm not making an effort when I'm not even bothered to. Dear Carolynn, GROW UP and start making your life A LIFE!! It's high time I start promising myself to make an effort to make my life more meaningful and more importantly, to be able to let God do whatever He wants to do with me. I know this little start I made in Fresno, but there is so much more I can do with the time and life God gave me. God help me.